Here we are at the end of 2020.
Impulsively, I want to post a happy picture and list the wonderful things that came out of this difficult year (and there are great things) but my heart is saying no. To be honest friends, this has been a rough year and for the most part I’ve only posted the good. Life isn’t always as it seems from a picture and it’s an internal battle I am currently working through. I hate that others may look at my experiences and my social media posts and compare it to their lives. It bothers me deeply. Therefore, you may have noticed I am posting less.
The truth is friends, I am not perfect. I don’t have a perfect family, a perfect marriage, a perfect life or perfect finances. I struggle. I make mistakes. I am human and continually seeking God's grace, wisdom and peace through this small time I have here on earth.
I struggle in my marriage, I struggle being a good parent with strong discipline, I struggle with continued medical issues, I struggle with my finances and I struggle with stress/anxiety. My mind battles with imperfections, not being enough and sometimes being too much. I struggle with my true purpose and what God want’s me to accomplish in this life.
Test after test the past few months have continued to prove that I am not as healthy on the inside as I may appear on the outside. How many feel this way? Really? Our mental, physical and spiritual states are in need of help. We are not as healthy and as happy as it may seem and some of us are in serious need of a makeover on the inside and out.
Toxins are polluting our bodies, our minds and our hearts. The articles we read, the social media posts we see, the movies we watch, the daily routine we have allowed ourselves to fall into it. These are toxins attacking our peace, our mental health and our joy.
After a lot of prayer, God has given me a new focus for the new year. My 2021 theme is “Removing the Toxins". Toxins in foods, toxins in my daily health products, toxins in my mind, toxins in my marriage and toxins in my heart. I want to be real and raw in 2021 and I feel God urging me to share this with others.
As I start January, I will be limiting the amount of time I am on social media and so you will be seeing less of me. What you can expect is that I am going to share my journey of removing the toxins as I know that there are many others experiencing this same mental, physical and spiritual state.
Stay tuned and have hope in new things to come.
Happy New Years!
“And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.”
“Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.”